Her Bad Mother

Monday, November 26, 2007

Dark

A week and half ago we went for our first ultrasound, as part of an 'integrated prenatal screening' to gauge the odds of genetic abnormalities in this pregnancy. In our baby. The ultrasound technician - and, later, the clinic doctor, who examined me closely because of something suspicious that was spotted in my ovaries (another story for another day) - said that everything looked fine. There were still blood tests to do, but they all sounded positive, and we got a lovely picture of a very baby-like fetus that I immediately called Sprout.

But now there's some doubt that everything's fine, and I'm losing my mind a little bit.

First thing this morning, my doctor's office called with a summons. Please come in first thing tomorrow, Dr. NiceLady would like to see you. ~Why? I'm seeing her in a few days.~ Yes, but she'd like to see you tomorrow morning.

An innocuous conversation, but then again, no conversation with your doctor when you're pregnant is innocuous. I have a scheduled prenatal appointment in a few days, at which time we were going to discuss the results of the IPS. The only reason that I can think of that she would need to speak with me, in person, immediately, is if something's wrong, so wrong that it can't wait a few days. So wrong that we need to discuss it, deal it with it, now.

Oh, god.

Husband has a phone call into the nurse to see if we can get more information before tomorrow. Something, anything, to stop panic, or something to let me know that it's okay to panic. Maybe it's better to not know for 24 hours?

No. I don't want to panic. I don't want to be scared. I want everything to be okay. But hovering somewhere in the dark spaces between should I be scared? and be scared and ohgodit'sbad is killing me, it's putting so much pressure on my heart that I'll think it'll burst.

Please, fingers crossed for me?

Update: Spoke with nurse. It indeed concerns test results, but doctor not in today and nurse can't discuss with me. Understood my fear - made worse by conversation with her - and asked me to do my very best to relax between now and tomorrow morning. Fuck relax. Will be crying all day, clinging to desperate hope that doctor is just being super-anal about getting results to me quickly. Desperate, desperate hope.

109 Comments:

Blogger Jenifer said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Don't doctors and nurses realize what a panic any kind of message like this causes? I have had messages like this only to find out it was something trivial meanwhile I had spent the entire time practically in tears.

I hope (and hope some more) that is nothing serious for you or Sprout.

9:57 AM  
Blogger Don Mills Diva said...

Oh Catherine - I have everything crossed for you. I will be thinking about you all morning.

9:59 AM  
Blogger Colleen said...

Fingers crossed. Toes crossed. What else can I cross?

Maybe... your doctor just has an unavoidable something that came up on the day of your appointment? Another patient has to have a c-section or induction? So they just want to see you earlier rather than later?

Everything crossed and positive thoughts.

10:00 AM  
Anonymous kdiddy said...

Everything is crossed. *hugs*

10:01 AM  
Blogger verybadcat said...

Thinking of you. Hope to see post this afternoon about ohmygodstupidnursestryingtokillmewithpanic.

Rooting for Sprout. And for you.

10:09 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

There was some question about my baby's kidneys in second pregancy. I was sent for an ultrasound to get a better look. My OB's nurse left a message at 5pm (as the office was closing) to call the Doctor first thing. I cried all night long & called the office first thing the next morning to have the doctor tell me that I needed iron supplements, and oh yeah the baby's kidneys were fine. I told the nurse that for the record, needing iron supplements was a message that she should feel free to leave on someone's voice mail.

Try not too worry,

xoxo

10:23 AM  
Anonymous whoorl said...

Sending positive baby vibes. xo

10:24 AM  
Blogger b*babbler said...

Hoping madly for you, for Sprout, for your entire family... I really am.

Many hugs.

10:26 AM  
Blogger Suz said...

Thinking of you and hoping that all is okay.

10:29 AM  
Blogger slouching mom said...

Oh, Catherine. I will be thinking about you, and Sprout, all day. And I'll be hoping that it's something minor and NOT worthy of that kind of phone call.

xxoo

10:31 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Chicken said...

Sending all my best vibes during this hard day.

10:34 AM  
Anonymous Liz said...

Oh, sweetheart.

Thinking of you and Sprout. Stay strong. I know it's much easier said than done.

But all this sick must amount to some kind of lovely news. Right?

thinking of you and sending positive vibes out there for you all.

xo

10:38 AM  
Anonymous Kimberly said...

Immediate summons to doctors offices are indeed terrifying. You are well within your rights to go to bed for the rest of the day, or do whatever else you need to do to get through the next few hours.

I'm praying for you and Sprout that you just have an incredibly anal doctor, or worst case scenario, that they want you in so that they can fix Sprout NOW.

10:39 AM  
Blogger mamalamadingdong said...

this happened to me, and it turned out to be a concern with me, not baby, due to scarring from previous trauma. Though its hard not to be a total wreck, please do not assume the worst! You four will be in my prayers!!

10:44 AM  
Blogger Kyla said...

Oh you. I wish I lived nearby and could come hold your hand while you wait. Damn doctors and policy. Don't they know what it does when they give these cryptic summons?

10:46 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh catherine my prayers are with you.don't those stupid docs know how much pregnant women worry when they do shite like that.just chant it like a mantra everyhtings fine everyhthings fine...will be anxiously awaiting your next post.god bless and try not to worry yourself sick about this and tell your hubby to kick someones arse tomorrow...hugs to you.LAVANDULA

10:53 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

*delurking* Sending good vibes your way for you and the family. Hang in there and breathe deep.

11:03 AM  
Blogger Wishful Mommy said...

sending tons of good vibes and hope you survive the panic...please post when you can...we are all thinking of you

11:05 AM  
Anonymous Nancy said...

I'm thinking of you and Sprout... damn the waiting.

11:08 AM  
Blogger Mary Joan Koch said...

Catherine,

Sending thoughts and prayers all day. I so hope this is a false alarm. The waiting would send me totally round the twist.

11:09 AM  
Blogger bubandpie said...

Why why why do they think this is kinder than telling you on the phone?

11:13 AM  
Blogger Awesome Mom said...

You would have thought that they could have handled that a bit better. I would be freaking out too. I will be thinking of you and baby.

11:18 AM  
Blogger crazymumma said...

Couldn't they have called you on the same day you were to go in? For godsakes.

My thoughts are with you, what a horrible place to be in.

Last effort, can't they reach her by cellphone and tell her you are having a bit of a breakdown? really. We did it once. it worked.

11:35 AM  
Blogger BOSSY said...

Bossy has crossed virtually everything. Luck and love.

11:36 AM  
Blogger Laura said...

Fingers crossed and sending serious good thoughts/prayers your way.

11:44 AM  
Anonymous Sandra said...

Sending lots of good thoughts and love your way.

11:47 AM  
Blogger -The Shiny Happy Mama- said...

I'll be thinking of you and keeping everything crossed.

11:52 AM  
Blogger Mad Hatter said...

Hey. I'll be thinking about you. Miss M had abnormalities on that ultrasound--such that I opted for amnio. Miss M, it turns out, is perfectly abnormal. So too will Sprout.

11:58 AM  
Blogger Whit said...

Holy crap. I hope all turns out well.

12:06 PM  
Anonymous fidget said...

oye WHY do they do this? WHY???? Deep breath... why do they always do this when Xanax isn't even in the realm of possibility?

I'm thinking wonderful fuzzy and warm thoughts for you. I'm hoping they just want you to get a repeat ultrasound and maybe youve got something going on like a placenta previa. the first time I had a previa you would have thought they discovered a horse in my womb instead of baby. They were all OH NOES!! OH NOES!! and I was breathing into a bag panicking until i found out it was just a previa.

12:11 PM  
Blogger ALI said...

nothing i can say will make this any easier, but i do know lots of test they do can give false info. thoughts and prayers are with you. if nothing else know that there is a whole community of people holding your hand, if only online.

12:16 PM  
Blogger Rocks In My Dryer said...

I don't think nurses should be allowed to make a phone call like that until they have an appointment spot already waiting for you THAT afternoon.

I'm so sorry for your anguished suspense--I've been there too--and you know the vast majority of things are "false positives", or doctors being overly edgy.

Still, will pray.

12:18 PM  
Blogger LD said...

Oh- my fingers and toes are crossed over and over again.

12:24 PM  
Blogger mamatulip said...

Catherine, you are in my thoughts. I understand your fear -- I got a very similar phone call while I was pregnant with Oliver. Red flags had come up as a result of his ultra sound, there were possible serious complications...I was terrified. I'm reaching my hand out to hold yours, in the hopes that some of your fear will dissipate.

xo

12:59 PM  
Blogger Julie Pippert said...

Hang in there. P&PTs.

Julie
Using My Words

12:59 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

C,

we three across the street are crossing everything for you that this turns out to be a case of "very anal doctor", and if it is, you should give her a piece of your mind...you know, the piece that you aren't losing right now with worry.

it is annoying that they have people who can't tell you anything, make the call. remember the words of the clinic doctor - everything looked fine.

sharon
xoxo

1:03 PM  
Blogger Mac and Cheese said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

1:07 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart is full of hope that its something minor and the Dr. Nicelady is CHAing (covering her ass). When my brother-in-law was in Emergency after a very bad accident, the doc's kept giving us the worst case scenerio (paralysis, cutting limbs off, death..). He ended up being fine, just a few broken bones. I think they operate on giving the Worst Case so that if it happens they can say they warned you. I pray that its the same for you.

1:14 PM  
Blogger Mimi said...

I can't even imagine what it must be like, waiting for tomorrow. I'm thinking of you and sending you all my best wishes for time to fly by until tomorrow, and for everything to resolve itself away.

1:17 PM  
Anonymous Angela said...

Thinking of you and Sprout and visualizing how you'll be able to feel very good about your self-control when you serenely avoid slapping your doctor silly tomorrow after finding out that she caused you all this panic for nothing.

But of course if you do slap her silly that's fine too.

1:23 PM  
Blogger Rusti said...

I'll be sending good thoughts your way, and prayers His way... thinking you all with best wishes... (HUGS)

1:24 PM  
Blogger anniemom said...

Ok - - anything really dangerous would not be postponed til tomorrow. It would be discussed with you NOW, with another doctor, whatever was needed. Oh HBM, I am so with you. I am so sending love and peace. There is nothing worse than waiting, that vile purgatory of mental torture. You have an army of angels. See them. Know them, and ask for help. We love you.

1:30 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

Catherine - I am so very sorry. This sucks and really waiting in dread is so crushing to a mother. I am hoping for you and waiting with you - on this other side of the internet - still I hope this is better than waiting completely alone.

1:35 PM  
Blogger Maggie said...

This is complete bullshit. That doctor should be PHONED, and then that doctor can PHONE YOU so you don't have to go through this! I can't BELIEVE they are doing this to you.

I don't know what to say.

1:35 PM  
Anonymous Steph said...

I have no doubt you and your family will rise above every obstacle- be it silly nurses causing panic for no reason or anything else. My thoughts are with you. And while nurses aren't allowed to tell you why you're being called in or the doctor doesn't tell them, in most cases I can tell you that it's something trivial- the doctor doesn't have bad news but wants more time to talk with you and your original appointment was at a bad time or that maybe they lost the test results and you do need another test and he just wants to get it over with this week and so moving up your appointment helps. Be as strong as you can.

1:35 PM  
Blogger kittenpie said...

Oh, honey, that is HARD. Waiting is always hard, waiting when there is worry involved and it gives you time to imagine all the wrost cases possible is just cruel.

all my digits are crossed, HBM.

1:54 PM  
Anonymous Heather said...

Everything is crossed for you here (save legs cause we're trying to get "in the family way" in the 'shwa). Don't doctors have pagers for these sorts of situations? Totally not fair to spring it on you.

2:09 PM  
Anonymous anna Grzymala-Busse said...

Oh, good god, that nurse sucks. Delurking to say I had the same phone call, and the same panic, after the same blood test. It turned out to be elevated AFP levels, with much hand-flapping about spina bifida, etc. But babe turned out fine. Very much hoping the same for you....

2:09 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh sweetie, the waiting is the worst! I've got everything crossed for you that can be crossed!

2:09 PM  
Blogger David said...

wow - so VERY unfair. I hope everything turns out OK and then you can open up a can of whupass on the doctor for making you scared like that.

2:12 PM  
Blogger painted maypole said...

fingers crossed, prayers commencing...

2:15 PM  
Blogger Niksmom said...

Adding my good wishes and vibes to the universe. Prayers, too. Damn it's hard to type with crossed fingers! They eyes don't help much either...

2:15 PM  
Anonymous Andrea said...

Adding my own Go Sprout Go! cheer to the mix and a whopping dose of hand holding for you. I went through a scare at about 16 weeks myself that turned out to be a miscalculation of my gestation. A new due date was all that was required. Here's to hoping it's something as innocuous and the fear you feel will be replaced by flooding relief. Thinking of you, Mama.

2:25 PM  
Blogger Gabriella said...

Lots of good thoughts and prayers are sent your way C. I'm hoping that this is only a case of a doctor being overly cautious. Shame on them though for calling you and then having you wait what is an eternity to you but nothing to them. That irks me.
Nevertheless lots of prayers are being said.

2:42 PM  
Blogger Ruth Dynamite said...

My friend just had the same kind of news delivered to her (e.g., no news, just nebulous concern) - and I'll tell you what I told her.

Nothing has changed between yesterday and today. Wait until you have something concrete to worry about, and until then, just try to breathe.

I'll breathe with you.

(And my friend? Total false alarm.)

Hang in there.

2:59 PM  
Anonymous FishyGirl said...

It's probably nothing, because if it was truly something SOMETHING, they would call you to come in immediately, not wait until the next day. I've been through the hubba-hubba-get-all-freaked-out thing more than once, and every damn time it was nothing. I'm praying that you have the same results.

3:04 PM  
Blogger The City Gal said...

THAT SUCKS!

I am so sorry to hear that.

What is wrong with nurses and doctors and this kind of communicating with the patient?

When I was expacting my cancer-biopsy results, they called me and asked me to go in ASAP. I was freaking out like a clown! I kept asking on the phone, "is it about my cancer biopsy?" "is it bad news"?

Of course, they can't tell you!

Once I went in, the doctor sat down with me and told me it's time for my annual check-up. "What about my cancer results?" Her answer was "What cancer results? I didn't see anything!"

I wanted to shoot her! Couldn't the nurse tell me that on the phone?

Idiots!

3:07 PM  
Anonymous FishyGirl said...

I also wanted to note that with Sunny, our test results came back at high risk of Down Syndrome. We opted not to amnio, and she's perfect. These tests have a stupid high rate of false positives.

Helps your mind, doesn't help your heart. Keeping my fingers crossed.

3:08 PM  
Anonymous Karen (Miscellaneous Mum) said...

Thinking of you, all the way over here.... xx

3:09 PM  
Blogger Binkytown said...

It's so easy to jump to the worst possible conclusion, I think we think it will protect us when all it really does is make us crazy.

Maybe they just need to do a re-test? That's what I'm going with. Best wishes.

3:12 PM  
Blogger Hannah said...

I had one of these a month ago. Nurse called home first, agitated my ill father-in-law by telling him that I had to call the doctor's office ASAP, very important regarding recent test results. Then called me at work, got me all wound up too.

Turned out my serum screening urine sample wasn't viable by the time the collection clinic got it to the lab, and I had to go pee in a cup again.

Nurses (and doctor's office receptionists) can sometimes be thoughtlessly cruel because they are trying to be businesslike. I hope this turns out to be nothing serious. Good luck.

3:15 PM  
Blogger Mamalooper said...

There are soooo many innocuous things it could be besides bad news. And even if there is an indication of something, remember that this test is NOT diagnostic. It's more of a risk assessment. The amnio (if you choose to have one) is what is diagnostic.

3:24 PM  
Blogger Mommato2 said...

Sending good thoughts and lots of hope your way. Those phone calls and the waiting are the absolute WORST. Will be anxious for an update tomorrow.
Hugs to you....

3:35 PM  
Blogger Badness Jones said...

Oh honey....thoughts and hope and hugs and fingers crossed coming your way....waiting is always the worst.

3:50 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

Wow that stinks.

There are so many tests that turn out to indicate something wrong inacurrately. Maybe this will be the case with you. I hope I hope for you.

3:56 PM  
Blogger Beck said...

OH GOD. How scary - but I've had that same phonecall twice in my three pregnancies and each time, had a healthy baby. So it could very well be nothing that's very serious.
But yes, it's a scary phonecall to get.

4:01 PM  
Blogger clueless but hopeful mama said...

oh god, Oh God, OH GOD. My heart is in my throat and I'm so scared with you, for you. My little agnostic self will say lots of prayers for you. I just hope beyond hope that all is well.

4:04 PM  
Blogger becks said...

fingers crossed, big internet hug to you!

4:08 PM  
Blogger Candygirlflies said...

Oh, my dear... fingers and toes and everything else I can muster, FIRMLY CROSSED. And many prayers, too.

Hang in there... and hope.

love love love, CGF xo

4:22 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Chicky said...

I'm wishing and hoping that your doctor is so super anal she wears a red cape with an "A" on it. I'm also wishing you a very swift evening.

Love and thoughts to you.

4:37 PM  
Blogger Motherhood Uncensored said...

Look at the power of HBM -- you've even got Agnostics praying for you.

We here in Atlanta are cheering for Sprout.

(and you too, friend).

5:01 PM  
Blogger Janet said...

Crossing, praying, hoping, for you.

xo
janet

5:29 PM  
Blogger Veronica said...

I have everything crossed that it is nothing major.

(((hugs)))

Damn doctors.

5:38 PM  
Blogger Kate said...

I have been there. It was horrible. And unfair, and scary, and painful.

Twice, actually. The first time did not have a happy ending. The second time ended up being a horrible, cruel, unnecessary false alarm, and the evidence of that baby's perfection is driving Matchbox cars on my foot right now.

I wish for you a false alarm, and the strength not to beat the doctor (and nurse) over the head with an examining table.

I have hope for you, even if yours slips a little.

5:57 PM  
Blogger mothergoosemouse said...

I'm with you. As close as I can get without being there in person.

xoxoxo

6:23 PM  
Blogger Aimee said...

I, too, have been there. As Kate said, it is horrible, painful and scary.

Tomorrow will come and I pray that everything works out well for you and baby.

Should you have any questions or concerns that we might be able to answer, don't hesitate to ask.

6:44 PM  
Blogger Sarcasta-Mom said...

I put my money on anal doctor. Try to keep it together until tomorrow. We're all thinking of you.

7:00 PM  
Blogger AliBlahBlah said...

I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you. I hope your doc can explain the necessity of putting you through this.

7:08 PM  
Anonymous glennia said...

Sending lots of love and happy, positive thoughts your way, dear. My gosh, I remember worrying so much over every thing when I was pregnant, so I know how hard this is. Hang in there.

7:13 PM  
Blogger Jezer said...

Much love, thoughts and prayers for you, my friend. Breathe in, now breathe out. Repeat.

7:50 PM  
Blogger Petunia Face said...

Your post resonated with me because when I was pregnant with my daughter I called her Sprout AND because I got the same terrifying phone call, the same questionable tests. Also strangely at the time--early December so I was grim and withdrawn while the whole world seemed to be merry and bright. Ultimately I had to get an amnio to rule out problems and then wait 2 excruciating weeks for the results. I thought I would die from fear, from lack of sleep and not being able to eat. It was by far the worst 2 weeks of my life. In the end the amnio showed everything was FINE. My baby was healthy and normal and is now an amazing toddler. I wish you the same results!

7:53 PM  
Blogger MamaMichelsBabies said...

I'm going to go with a anal retentive doc who likes to scare the bejeebus out of women. That's what I'm going with and I'm stickin to it.

What a sucky ass thing to do, if it is nothing I hope like hell you lay into them for their actions and lack of consideration. And it is nothing, so plan on going in there and making heads roll.

Aw heck Mama... I'm adding to the many prayers here.

9:09 PM  
Blogger Pgoodness said...

thinking of you and Sprout. Hang in there...I know it sucks, the waiting, but we're all praying and hoping all is well for you.

9:12 PM  
Blogger Trenches of Mommyhood said...

Have everything crossed as I sit here typing.
No words, just a virtual hug.

10:21 PM  
Anonymous Trillian said...

Thinking of you here at the nest. Hang in there!

10:34 PM  
Blogger Jozet at Halushki said...

Oh, brother...I thought they taught against this kind of thing in doctor school.

I had a doctor do this to me once and it was because she needed to change an appointment. What an idiot.

If it's the blood test, just know that I can count on both hands and both feet the number of people who had positive results leaning in some direction which later turned out to be false positives because dates were screwy or because they were old fogey moms, etc.

Anyway...I am willing tomorrow morning to be here. All will be well. All will be well. In ten years, you can ground Sprout for scaring the heck out of you.

10:40 PM  
Blogger Lisa b said...

I think that is a very nasty thing to do to a pregnant lady. From a screen they don't know anything for sure. Don't freak out. You screen positive at 1 in 200.
Get the amnio if you are worried. Seriously it is not a big deal.

11:27 PM  
Blogger Lisa b said...

to get an amnio. Being scared is a big deal.
amnio. really not a big deal. I swear.
I cry from a hangnail.

11:28 PM  
Blogger SUEB0B said...

Oh baby. I know you can't relax, but I wish you all the best.

12:15 AM  
Blogger Cathy said...

Thinking of both of you. *hugs*

12:40 AM  
Blogger Jaelithe said...

Oh my goodness. Best of luck. Hang in there, lady.

12:45 AM  
Blogger flutter said...

Thinking of you

12:47 AM  
Blogger creative-type dad said...

fingers crossed, fingers crossed....

1:19 AM  
Blogger something blue said...

I'm wishing with all my might that today you will be given all your hope and joy back.

2:01 AM  
Blogger Laural Dawn said...

I was thinking about this last night - if your test was more than a week ago and the doctor is just calling now then it may not be a huge thing.
I hope that's the case.
When my doctor called me back about the IPS results I was terrified - and literally hopped in a cab and begged to see her.
I had low iron and was told to eat red meat. Seriously. (thankfully they didn't check my blood pressure)

8:26 AM  
Blogger Carly said...

Sending you positive vibes and best wishes from the Boonies...

Carly

8:42 AM  
Anonymous Tara (aka AbbysMomma) said...

Sending BIG HUGS and positive vibes your way... *fingers crossed* that DR is being overly cautious.

8:46 AM  
Blogger The City Gal said...

It is 10:15 am Toronto Time on Tuesday.

I am counting the minutes until you come back from the doctor's office and let us know what happened.

Love you!

10:13 AM  
Blogger Amy said...

Fingers crossed, prayers being said.

10:15 AM  
Blogger Dana J. Tuszke said...

I don't know what to say because nothing will calm your nerves until you are at the doctor's office. Please know that I'm praying everything is well and that your doctor is just exaggerating and that nothing is wrong.

-hugs from afar-
Dana

10:26 AM  
Blogger Lawyer Mama said...

Fingers crossed. Just try to remember that the screening tests are all about odds. False positives are common, especially when you're, um... a bit older like we are.

With my first pregnancy, my screen came back with a 1 in 31 chance of Down's Sydrome. I had an amnio. Everything was fine. But they have to talk to you quickly to give you the greatest number of options for further testing.

Hang in there.

10:27 AM  
Blogger Jenifer said...

I'm praying for you.... and I'll be checking for updates....

I know what you are feeling... I had 2 days of bleeding recently and the doctor has no idea why, the heartbeat was fine and he says everything "looks" normal. He said if there is anything wrong they will catch it at my u/s ON TH 31ST!!

I will be anxious and holding my breath evertime I use the bathroom until then, panicing the bleeding may return... so far, so good, but that is little to calm my fears.

Finger and toes and anything else I can manage are crossed for you..

10:40 AM  
Anonymous Mir said...

Hoping and praying this is the sort of worry you'll look back on and laugh. Hang in there, girl... you have lots of folks rooting for you.

10:56 AM  
Blogger Christina said...

Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best for you.

I hate when they tell you to come in the next day, with no explanation. That has to go against some kind of medical ethics code. If it's that important, they should be able to give you more information about what's going on to require you to come in.

Wishing for nothing but good news.

11:33 AM  
Anonymous fidget said...

thinking of you and looking for an update (((hugs)))

11:39 AM  
Anonymous Wright said...

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. Best wishes for you and baby!

11:52 AM  
Blogger iheartchocolate said...

I said a prayer for you just now. I pray everything will be fine, if not, God give you the strength and peace to deal with whatever lie ahead.
I am sorry this is such a difficult time, there is always a light.

12:05 PM  
Anonymous Busy Mom said...

Thinking of you and your family.

1:18 PM  
Blogger Shari said...

My heart goes out to you, and my prayers. Keep in mind, often the test or technician isn't the right tool at the righ time for you and your baby. I had several miscarriages before my oldest daughter was born. Afterward, another 12 years of wanting, trying, and crying... then a suprise - and many changes later... my 3rd child gave us a similar scare. Due to my history and both our ages, we had an early set of tests at about 12 weeks gestation. Needless to say there was 'nothing' on the ultrasound. No heartbeats, no images, noting. We cried and cried... but my husband said the baby was 'just hiding' (I personally thought he was patronizing me - can we say "overly distraught hormones?") Turned out he was right. Lesson for me was that no matter what medical test or scary news we receive, it was ultimately a false alarm and another reminder that we are 'practicing' medicine.

Keep your stress as low as you can, and let Him take your burden.

God Bless and Good Luck -
Supermomhasleftthebuilding

2:27 AM  

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