Her Bad Mother

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Put To The Test

It's done. The test is done. I didn't like it, but HBF said that I was very, very brave (just close your eyes - close your eyes, hard - and clutch someone's hand and think of a happy place, or any place without long scary needles) and that I didn't hurt his hand at all when I squeezed it really, really hard. I only cried a little bit - just out of fear, really, which was unavoidable for me - and the attending OB was very kind, and by the time we were out of the amnio room my eyes were dry and I was able to focus on the pressing issue of whether HBF should fetch me cookies or a latte.

I'd like to say that the hard part is over, but it's not. Now, I'm going to lay very, very still for a day or two and pray that I don't fall into that percentage of women for whom the amnio does not end well. After that, the hardest part will be over, I think. Then all there is to do is wait for more answers. But whatever those answers are, so long as they involve a Sprout ending up in our arms, we'll be fine with them, and will proceed in the only way that we know how, with love.

No matter what.

86 Comments:

Blogger Kelly said...

You said it so well. I'm glad the test is over. Rest, and we're all thinking of you.

2:45 PM  
Blogger Cara said...

Rest up Momma, you did it. Kuddos!

2:54 PM  
Blogger Mary Joan Koch said...

I am so glad the test it over. Please rest and feel all our hugs and good wishes.

2:58 PM  
Blogger Mary Joan Koch said...

I am so glad the test it over. Please rest and feel all our hugs and good wishes.

2:58 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I think you're brave too.

Hugs to you.

3:01 PM  
Anonymous Wright said...

Rest and know that we are all praying for you.

3:05 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh catherine i'm so glad that the test is done.a big hug to you for being brave and going through with the test.i will be praying for the best possible outcome for your little sprout and youir family.rest well and know that we are all thinking of you.LAVANDULA

3:21 PM  
Blogger Awesome Mom said...

I am so glad you made it through ok. I will be keeping you in my thoughts.

3:21 PM  
Blogger Janet said...

I hope HBF got you cookies AND a latte. Rest and be well.

Janet

3:23 PM  
Blogger Candygirlflies said...

I am so proud of you, HBM...

Rest, now.

Lots and lots of love, CGF xo

3:32 PM  
Blogger PunditMom said...

So glad it's done. We're thinking of you.

3:36 PM  
Blogger Kris said...

You are incredibly brave. Our thoughts and well wishes are with you, Sprout and Her Bad Gang.

4:02 PM  
Blogger The City Gal said...

Congratulations for being brave.

It will all work out, I am sure.

4:04 PM  
Blogger Much More Than a Mom said...

Bless you, you brave woman!

4:06 PM  
Blogger Crystal said...

Rest up HBM. You were brave. Your answers will come soon.

4:10 PM  
Blogger Laural Dawn said...

I'm glad it is over. I was doing a lot of worrying for you.
Relax. Be strong. And Sprout will be fine. The hardest part is getting your mind on other things (which is why it sucks you can't drink while pregnant.)

4:13 PM  
Blogger b*babbler said...

Like everyone else, I'm so glad that the test is over for you.

Try to rest, enjoy some tea and cookies (and chocolate) and some coddling from the good husband.

Thinking of Sprout...

4:15 PM  
Blogger Mouse said...

Glad you made it through this part. I'll be crossing my fingers for the results. Rest up and watch something funny.

4:17 PM  
Blogger Heather B. said...

Enjoy your latte and cookies (You SO deserve both) and I will be thinking lots of good thoughts for you and the sprout.

4:26 PM  
Blogger flutter said...

No matter what, babe.

4:27 PM  
Blogger Mac and Cheese said...

I was thinking of you all day. I think you deserve cookies AND a latte.

4:29 PM  
Blogger Lara said...

i know i don't have much to add here, because i'm not a mom who can talk about these tests and what it must feel like to be so uncertain. i just wanted to say that i am so proud of you and honored to know you even just a little bit and that i think you are and always will be an inspiration to mothers - no, women - no, PEOPLE - everywhere.

no matter what.

4:37 PM  
Blogger clueless but hopeful mama said...

I think we all agree: cookies AND a latte.

hugs and kisses and thoughts and wishes and prayers (even from an agnostic who doesn't know you).

4:42 PM  
Anonymous Anastasia Beaverhausen said...

Every part of my body "crossed" for a healthy, happy Sprout. No matter what.

http://wordgirl5.typepad.com/apathy_lounge

4:45 PM  
Anonymous pgoodness said...

Been thinking of you all day. Hang tight.

4:46 PM  
Anonymous Sandra said...

Love to you in all of your bravery. Big supportive hugs being sent your way
xoxox

5:05 PM  
Blogger Blog Antagonist said...

Lots of healthy baby vibes coming your way. Everything will be okay. I choose to believe nothing else. (((HUGS)))

5:05 PM  
Blogger Maggie said...

*phew*

Lie still and rest, you've more than earned it. Thinking of you.

5:08 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

And we'll be here for you, no matter what.

5:54 PM  
Blogger Robbin said...

Rest up - fingers will be crossed for you.

I was 40 when I had my son. They told me even before I had my quad screen to expect a positive result. I told my OB no matter what happened, I was fine with it. As it turned out, I got a better score than most 24 year olds.

We suffered from infertility prior to conceiving our son (by IUI), and I remember two of my friends giving birth to their son, who has Down Syndrome and what they went through. I remember thinking at the time "Lord, I would take that result any day if you give me a child to love." Her experience made my decisions for me.

I was blessed, and you will be too. No matter HOW this comes out.

6:03 PM  
Blogger One Cool Chic said...

I'll keep you in my thoughts and you know things always seem to work out one way or another, they always do.

Lyns

6:07 PM  
Blogger Mommato2 said...

Oh, so glad to hear that the test is all done....get some well deserved rest.

We will all be here waiting for your updates.

More hugs and hand holding to you...

6:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

good girl, i knew you could do it. i've been thinking about you all day and glad you are now home resting (and being waited on?) if we can do anything for you, holler.

sharon
xo

6:35 PM  
Anonymous mothergoosemouse said...

Good for you. Take it easy, and keep taking those deep breaths. Waiting for the result isn't easy, but yes, the hardest part is almost over.

xoxoxo

6:35 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Chicken said...

Thinking of you and hoping for the best possible outcome.

7:18 PM  
Blogger Jenifer said...

Well you are almost there...you will be in my thoughts. Now it is time to take a rest, think good thoughts and squeeze that adorable WB.

7:33 PM  
Blogger daysgoby said...

Much love to you, Cookie.
You were very brave.

7:54 PM  
Blogger kittenpie said...

Good work, brave woman. Keep your chin up, and we'll all be hoping for the best for you.

I also have lots of time off in December, so let's get together a few people for a playdate some day before you go, okay? When do you move?

7:58 PM  
Blogger liv said...

hi, beautiful girl. wishing you good rest, love & light. hang in there...there are lots of hugs out in blogland for you and the whole bad crew.

7:59 PM  
Blogger Aimee said...

I've been thinking of you all day and checked in here a couple of times for an update.

Will you get initial results soon, or will you have to wait for the full report? I'm asking because with us, we got an initial report within a few days (from Thursday evening to Monday afternoon).

SO glad that HBF was on hand for his support and to fetch whatever treat you wanted. Take it easy for a few days and know you're our thoughts and prayers. Feel free to email me if you like at wvgurl at yahoo dot com.

8:04 PM  
Blogger Beck said...

Good work, mama.
Now rest.

8:20 PM  
Blogger Maria said...

Your Strength is really amazing--You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers.

8:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi, delurking to say well done, I was thinking of you today, best wishes to you from Ireland.

8:46 PM  
Blogger liz said...

Cookies, a latte, and a fluffy book to cozy up with. You are brave and strong and a very very good mommy.

8:47 PM  
Anonymous FishyGirl said...

So glad it's over, and that you were brave. You are actually far braver than I. And we will all be here for you, nomatterwhat.

8:49 PM  
Blogger Agatha said...

Well done, get yourself some pelvic rest, rest, rest. & good luck x

8:50 PM  
Blogger Jozet at Halushki said...

Much love to you and Sprout.

Rest and relaxate, latte at the ready...and float. We gotchya.

xxoo

9:13 PM  
Blogger Miscellaneous-Mum said...

Rest, hon. Rest, you did well.

9:13 PM  
Blogger Kyla said...

You were very, very brave. And you continue to be so.

9:34 PM  
Blogger Mom101 said...

Sending you much love and virtual cookies.

10:04 PM  
Blogger slouching mom said...

xx's and oo's in spades.

10:21 PM  
Blogger tiffany said...

your bravery is very, VERY inspiring. obviously, you're in a lot of people's thoughts...i truly hope that helps at least a bit.

10:39 PM  
Blogger nomotherearth said...

I'd have the cookies AND the latte. Why choose?

Thinking of you and sending you hugs.

A

10:58 PM  
Blogger LD said...

A hundred warm prayers and hopeful thoughts for you--

11:35 PM  
Blogger Major Bedhead said...

You're in my thoughts these last few days...hang in there. And eat all the cookies you want.

12:40 AM  
Blogger painted maypole said...

brave you.

1:13 AM  
Blogger motherbumper said...

Why does it have to be cookies or latte? I say both. Be still, be calm, be peaceful - xo.

7:20 AM  
Anonymous amy (another one) said...

You are very brave indeed. I'll be thinking about you. Take care of yourself and Sprout.

amy at thetextureofthings.com

7:57 AM  
Blogger -The Shiny Happy Mama- said...

You are very brave, I agree. Rest up! You will continue to be in my thoughts.

8:16 AM  
Blogger Tara F (aka AbbysMomma) said...

I'm proud of you! Take care and rest for a few days (easier said than done with a little one). You're in my thoughts...

8:46 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Chicky said...

I hope you're not sitting up right now. Rest and cookies.

9:28 AM  
Blogger Elizabeth Edwards said...

I think you deserve cookies AND a latte, sweetie. I was thinking about you a lot yesterday. Big hugs!

9:33 AM  
Blogger Hannah said...

Well done getting through the test, I know you must have been very scared and upset.

We're pulling for you.

9:34 AM  
Blogger David said...

the bluegrass chapter of the HBM fanclub is pulling for you and your family.

well done.

10:33 AM  
Blogger kgirl said...

Rest up, stay still and enjoy the cookies. much love. xo.

11:56 AM  
Blogger Redneck Mommy said...

Much love and virtual cookies sent your way friend.

Smooches.

11:59 AM  
Blogger MamaMichelsBabies said...

Thinking about you guys.. relax, and try not ot think about (Yeah I know, not happening)

*hugs*

12:05 PM  
Blogger ~JJ! said...

Praying for you.

12:42 PM  
Blogger mamatulip said...

I'm proud of you.

I hope the wait isn't too long.

xo

12:54 PM  
Blogger Angela said...

Whew! That's done and soon you'll have the results. Feet up and a cookie in each hand sounds like a good place to be right now.

Good Job Mama!

2:53 PM  
Blogger Staciesmadness said...

GREAT JOB.
Take it easy now...rest and wait. HUGS

3:12 PM  
Blogger caramama said...

You are brave and strong! You deserve both cookies and lattes!

Rest and take it easy. And know that you are not waiting alone. We will all be here with you.

6:31 PM  
Blogger JaniceNW said...

I'm so very proud of you. My prayers will continue. Hugs.

6:33 PM  
Anonymous red pen mama said...

Good job being brave. Hope you got the cookies and the latte, and that you can take it easy, in your head as well as off your feet, for a while. We (as you can clearly see from all these comments) are all wishing you well.

ciao,
rpm

8:51 PM  
Blogger Christina said...

Deep breath. And release.

I know it won't be any easier to relax until you know the results of that test, but try to take it easy. Thinking lots of good thoughts for you.

9:11 PM  
Blogger jenB said...

i have been thinking of you. big love from here. nomatterwhat.

10:27 PM  
Anonymous ozma said...

You are brave. I am thinking of you and your little one.

4:42 AM  
Blogger crazymumma said...

I was running on the treadmill yesterday and I saw a woman across the street and I thought might be you. Then I thought, no, she will, she should, be lying down.

rest well. xo

2:08 PM  
Blogger Niksmom said...

Sending you good, restful, healthy Sprout wishes!

2:24 PM  
Blogger Mama P said...

I love your line of thinking. I feel the same. And you know what, it probably isn't Downs. But if it is, it is still a perfect baby. Because it's meant to be here. And you will all grow bucket loads due to this precious gift. It'll be more work, but fuck it. It's gonna be worth it. I am so proud of you, and I don't even know you. MUCH luck.

1:28 AM  
Anonymous Lydia said...

I had the amnio Wednesday... with the marvels of modern technology, the preliminary results came Friday afternoon... ALL IS FINE.

And since you and I seem to be on the same vibe for our pregnancies... I have complete confidence that YOUR test is fine too.

11:10 AM  
Blogger Her Bad Mother said...

Wow, Lydia. I'm not due to get results for 2 - 3 weeks - and that's having gone to one of the best genetics programs in Canada. so happy for you though!

1:53 PM  
Blogger Christine said...

you are amazing.

take care, 'k?

5:28 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

My palms got sweaty just READING that. I would go into full on anxiety attack if I had to have that test.

You are brave. You deserve a latte AND a medal, darling.

1:31 AM  
Blogger scarbie doll said...

wow, sorry to hear you've been going through this. I'm with you -- once you're on this side of the motherhood fence, it would be no matter what for me too. Anything else is impossible to imagine. Before I had a child (or I guess it's children now) I would have said otherwise. But yes, no matter what. Sending you vibes of strength.

3:30 PM  
Blogger ewe are here said...

I've been offline, so I know all is well now, but oh how I remember the loooooong needles for this procedure.

My good wishes are with all of you while you await the results.

5:19 AM  

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